Two Year Heavenversary
Here I am admitting yet again that I really wish I didn’t have to write this post. Two years? How is that even possible? Two years ago we said goodbye to the sweetest, cutest, most fun, and lovable two year old nephew of ours. Two years ago on this day, and on my brother and sister-in-laws anniversary, they had to say goodbye to their firstborn son.
You know those stories that you read about? Maybe on the news or stories of a friend of a friend of a friend. The ones you never think will happen to your family. Well it did. My 2.5 year old nephew got diagnosed with brain cancer and passed away 15 days later. We weren’t prepared for it, but then again is anyone ever prepared to experience tragedy and loss?
It is amazing how fast two years can go by and yet things feel as though they just happened yesterday. I can’t describe all the mixed emotions that come when I think about Kai. There is so much happiness that he is in heaven with Jesus. I mean really… that is unfathomable to think about. He is healed. He is cancer-free. He is with the King. I get a little jealous at times when I think of all the pain he has to skip here on earth. But, then there are the emotions of sadness, pain, wonder, and longing. I am so sad and heartbroken he isn’t here and I long to see him. I can easily experience all of these within a matter of minutes or hours.
No matter what emotion I am feeling, today (and every day) I am choosing to honor and celebrate the very full life he lived here on earth. Not a day goes by where you aren’t thought about and remembered, sweet boy. Love you and miss you. Love wins. ♥