Over the past few days I’ve been a little convicted over my thoughts/actions after receiving my latest blood results. This morning, the Jesus Calling devotional I read was just one more way God was teaching me about trust. There was a line that mentioned that we trust God when things go well, but not when things go bad.
Then I realized, I didn’t do much praising when I found out my results. My prolactin made a HUGE change, which means I don’t have to get more MRI’s/have my tumor removed. Hallelujah! My thyroid levels dropped within a reasonable range. Those were both answers to prayer.
I’m glad that God is so patient with me. I would be so annoyed with myself if I were him! What if our future children only complained over the bad things we did for them and never thanked us for the good? It would get old. I have no doubt that this situation is the same way. Yet, He is a God of understanding, grace, and forgiveness. Thanks goodness!
So, today we are praising God for all He has done. For answering prayer and improving the results. Yes, the FSH isn’t what we wanted, but, that’s ok! It’s just a number and God is much bigger than one number or one test.
It’s amazing how many times I forget God’s truths and turn to disappointment, instead of praise. Of course, it’s ok to be upset. But, I believe God wants us to praise Him while we are going through these trials, not only after we get what we have asked for. I believe there is only ONE way to find peace in this broken world. It’s not by medication, alcohol, rebellion, or other sin. It won’t come from our political leaders, friends, doctors, co-workers or husbands. It’s through trusting God. He is the ONLY way we will find complete peace in situation like this. As much as we want a child, we are resting in the fact that He will bring us a child! And, while we wait, we continue to praise, worship and trust Him!
But I trust in you, Lord; I say, “You are my God. Psalm 31:1-4