Blessed Am I
On my journey to becoming a mother I have had a long list of negative thoughts that have entered my mind. Some days are worse than others and some thoughts happen way more than others. Regardless, it’s easy for my mind to be full of doubt, fear, lies, and negativity. Below are some of the thoughts that have entered my mind on any given day (unfortunately some of these have also been spoken to me by other people):
- You are so naive
- Why would you ever think that you are going to conceive without medical help?
- It’s never going to happen
- You are never going to be a mom
- You are wasting time
- Everyone around you is pregnant, why can’t you get pregnant?
- You are stupid for taking the path you are on
- You are only getting older
- Everyone around you is already a mom
- You’re behind schedule
You name it, I have thought it. As I wait and wait and wait some more, negative thoughts on becoming a mom continue to cross my mind. It doesn’t matter how much I focus on scripture or take my thoughts captive, the negativity still happens.
But, “Blessed is she who has believed that the Lord would fulfill his promises to her.” Luke 1:45. This verse. This verse is what brings me so much hope. This verse is what I constantly have to declare over and over and over again. When negative thoughts come against me I declare that blessed am I for believing! Say what? Yes, I am blessed for believing that God is going to fulfill His promises to me. He doesn’t think I am stupid. He doesn’t think I am wasting time, but He calls me blessed!
Whatever you are facing, no matter how bad the odds are, know that as you put your faith in the Lord that you too are blessed for believing He is going to fulfill His promises to you! You aren’t stupid. You aren’t naive. You aren’t oblivious. You are BLESSED!